A Bit More

Well I haven't had a proper time me time in what feels like months. It's so difficult to not just go and do what I want. But then there's so little I want to do that I actually have to come back just for something to do. I have so few wants in my life. I should fix that probably :)).

But I am content. Tomorrow I am gonna have me some cake. So yeah I'm getting some me time :)

Stupid Imaginary Conversations

I've just read something from two to three years ago. I never knew that's what was happening to you. I never knew because I never really went beyond my phone and its capabilities. I chose to kept my life as simple as possible, so I never knew what you were saying, wishing, or hoping for. You weren't all that brave. You started it, ended it, and snatched whatever wholeness I had around a year ago. And you wished you could take it all back, but you didn't.

You didn't.

And now I'm happier, as whole as I can be after everything. It's strange for me to have you two talking about me behind my back, but I can't control him, he has the right to do what he wants. And yet I can't help but still think about it, and I don't think it's ever gonna go away. Not until I get used to you again as my best friend.

You were one of my best friends. And yeah four out of five isn't as fun.

And as your best friend I will always wish for your happiness. Always. And you will probably be my biggest what if.

And because you or anybody else is ever gonna find this, I just wanted to say that I missed you everyday you didn't put things right. And that if I was raised to be American, I would chase after you, even after all that, just to hear you tell me you love me again.

This is retarded

What If....

What if the one that got away

Came back....

--------FUDGE YOU TUMBLR -_-

My Feet Still Hurt

I heard the rumors again and again. They were all bad. But last night was actually much better than what we could ever do last year. It was a long night of fun. I loved it. I wore a pretty dress, you were looking more dapper and handsome than usual. You picked me up and brought me home. You chose out a lovely corsage. You also hit me in the face with a rose. Twice. But I forgive you. I love you too much to hold grudges on a night like that. You also spilled water on me while dancing the macarena but you apologized and I got dry. You're cute when you're begging for forgiveness XD. 

But what was weird last night was him. You and him talk a lot so it seems. I think I am disturbed by that. But I'm most disturbed as to why he seems to be trying to patch things up with me even though I have you.